I'm going to say this, but I'm not going to apologize. Being a Christian is not about going to Heaven. There, I said it. I feel like we as Christians, (myself included), have come to a place where we just look forward to heaven. Yeah, we know the world is fallen and we are to be a light in the world, but really we just look forward to heaven. I don't think that is what Jesus intended. When Jesus spoke about the kingdom of God, he was talking about us, Christians. When the Kingdom of God comes... Why is it that now we just think about being in Heaven? Why do we think about that's when life will be great? Jesus called us to make life great now, here, for everyone, not just me.

That's the real problem, isn't it. Selfishness. Why is it that everything that we think about always involves us? I am always thinking of myself. Here is my radical thought, if we stop being selfish and start being the Kingdom, then we can be more effective at bringing Heaven to earth. That's our job right? To be the Jesus that people come in contact with.

I talk about this a lot, if we get onto this kind of topic, but I think about in Exodus. God calls Moses to go to Pharaoh and demand the Israelite go free. But Moses is a little but timid about that. But God says something to him and Aaron that will alway stick with me. He basically said, you guys, when you are in front of Pharaoh or Israel, you are to be like God to them. What I see from that is that we are the only example of God people may ever come in contact with.

Man, Heaven is a reward. It's an unearned reward. But man, I want to live like I need to earn it. I want to live like Jesus did. Jesus was the start of the Kingdom on earth. We spend more time and effort on making sure our houses look nice or we have our school work done, than really spend time begin like Jesus to people. Where is our sense of urgency. I love that my job is about bringing Jesus to people. But honestly, sometimes it makes it harder for me to find people to bring Jesus to. I think that's why I am passionate about finding time, wherever I can to touch some ones life. Man, we need to "be" Heaven here on earth, live like you have a purpose and not just this need to consume. Then let's see what God can do then.

I feel pretty guilty. There's a guy who come to our church. He usually stands in the back by the sound booth during the service. I hadn't seen him in a few weeks and then this week he was back. But he was on a crutch and had a back brace on. I asked him what had happened, quietly cause it was during the service. He told me that he had been in a motorcycle accident. He had broken his back in two places, fractured his leg in two places, and broke his collar bone. And then he told me that a good friend of his who had been with him died in the accident.

I didn't know what to say. I mean what do you say. He looked broken, emotionally. I told him that I would be praying for him. But the worst thing is, I don't even know his name. I can't imagine how he must be feeling. I went to pat him on the shoulder to comfort him and he grimaced in pain. I'm such an idiot. He just told me he had broken bones and I pat him on the back.

I've been thinking about him since Sunday morning non-stop. I want him to know that when I said I was praying for him, I really am, all day long. And I want to stop being the guy who spends 5 seconds saying hi to people and I don't even get to know their name. I think though, I want to thank God that he was back at our church. We need to now be the family he needs, and rally around him.